The waiting game.

So I got this great idea that I could be a home owner. Well I went to the bank on June 24th. My mortgage leander said he was 99.9% sure that I would get approved for $x. He said he should know in 5 to 10 days and let me know. Well I have been waiting and can I just say it sucks and then the fact that we had July 4th in the mix as well which makes it 1 more non bank day. So really if you look at it 10 days would be July 11th! UGGG. Well my mom talked me into going and looking at houses before I have gotten my pre-approval letter. Well I fell in love with a house that is amazing and its dropped 20,000. It's an amazing house, updated, nothing needs to be fixed, perfect to grow in to. Well its been on the market for over a year and now that its at this price its more priced to sell. So here I am waiting on the bank and hoping no one goes and buys this house. My best guy friend lives behind it so our(ha talk like its mine already!) lawns touch. Another guy friends parents live across the street. Well the one saw them showing the house twice this week. It just kills me. I really would love this house. I believe in God and I try hard to believe that if this happens its meant to be and if it ends up selling to someone else I know that it was not meant to be and that there is something better out there. Its just is getting hard hoping and waiting. I am ready to move out of my parents house again. I was on my own before A was born and well when she was born I had my own apartment. Well my landlord kicked me out unlawfully with only a month to find a place with a brand new baby who was only 3 weeks old. So to make things easier and less stressful I moved back in to my parents.
Well all in all now I have the moving bug. If I don't end up getting this house I am going to start looking for apartments in town as for there are no houses that compare right now to the one I am now in love with. I am ready to be on my own and care for A by myself. Its hard cause sometime A crys for my mom which sometimes breaks my heart. I am just ready to do it!  Also I know it may sound silly but I will cry if I don't get this house. IT"S AMAZING!!! I will keep you all updated.